About Me

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Greetings and hello! Thanks for stopping in!

The first thing you should probably know is that I write primarily about Bipolar Disorder (BD), not because it is fascinating, but because I know from personal experience about what it is and how I live with it (and a few other tiny other things). I live with BD type 1, rapid cycling, mixed states, am primarily manic and have been so for a long time and am high functioning (* see below). That last one means I can act like there isn’t anything wrong with me. This can be a real problem when someone is trying to make a treatment plan for me and put me on the right medications. It can make it seem like I’m doing better than I really am. It has taken me years to be able to….

Arount late 2013 ADHD was added to my diagnosis. Surprise!!

Soooo manic anyone?

And now, on with the program!

I’m a single mom of three Millennials… yeah, I don’t know squat about what to do with them. No else I know has any suggestions on how to raise/teach/advise/etc. them either. It’s sort of like River Song in Doctor Who. When Rory and Amy were the Doctor’s companions they just happened to make a baby while on the Tardis. That baby, River Song, is born with the powers of a Time Lord. They have no idea how to handle her. In fact, when they first meet her she’s older than they are. Yep, Millennials are just like that. Definitely like that.

I’ve been single longer than I was married and I’m jazzed about that.

I also have a 6-year-old Kelpie named Bailey. She’s a cattle dog. You know, one of those breeds that chases cows and horses and such. My eldest child (Jessica) and my eldest son Kyle currently live with me. This house is now this home to:

1 Dog

4 cats (my 1 – Maks, her 2 – Thea and Murdock), and a rescue kitten (Savvy/kitten/baby (puppy) or little shit – making 4)

1 Bearded dragon we call Lizard (we can’t determine her sex. I say she’s a she and don’t care what she turns out to be because her name is still going to be Lizard and she’s still going to be a she.) UPDATE: I’ve lost. We still have no idea of his sex, ehem, but Vicktor (see below) is now his name.

1 beta fish Victor – (now RIP)

4 fish tanks with an assortment of unnamed fish that the kitten watches like we watch TV. … wait… wait…. where did those two other tanks come from and what’s in them? They look empty… a crab? a three legged crab? I don’t see anything.

I love to read when I can slow my mind down enough to do so

I love books with short chapters… like a page or two, so I can focus on them. I can usually be found to be reading at least three fiction books, a biography, one on success (I figure one of them must surely have something I can use to help me navigate BD), and a book dealing specifically with BD. I’ve been watching HGTV for a while now…. nope. Moved on. Can’t decide what to watch these days. Batwoman? Live PD? Random ghost, para, abnormal, “spooky,” baking, Amazon Prime, Are You Being Served? and even real history history shows. Oh, add some YouTube in there.

I enjoy taking my dog on walks and like to try to get one of the kids to go with me. Sometimes I have to promise not to talk… yeah, that works. I mean honestly, what are they going to do, leave me a mile from home? Well, actually, they might. I’d better not mention that to them. Actually Jessica and I have a work around. Either a) go for a super short walk or b) abree to use headphones to listen to whatever makes you happy. Works well.

This blog is about me and my stuff. My stuff includes: Bipolar Disorder, Mania, Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD), General Anxiety Disorder, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Osteoarthritis Arthritis, and extremely dry eyes.  (BD, mania, ADHD, GAD, OA, RA & EDE. See? Alphabet soup). I’ve already had my right knee replaced twice, cataracts removed, etc. It’s a secret, but I’m actually 92 years old. Sshhh. No one can know!)

* This simply means that while I’m manic… I’m also depressed – At the SAME TIME! Now that’s freaking confusing. “How are you feeling?” Ummm… mashed potatoes? I also switch from one extreme end of what has been designated as human norms (manic – bouncing off walls, etc. and depressed – feeling crushed to death under the weight of the tectonic plates we live on) back and forth way, way faster than one of those persons who fall within the designated “normal humans.” Confusing? Yeah, I think so too. Imagine trying to live with me like my eldest child does.

Okay, this is my honest to goodness life’s story. It’s how life and I interact, react and dance. Things are crazy ALL the TIME. I try not to write a whole book when I post… but I’m manically manic and I write what I write, and I write.

I hope you can find something here that you can identify with and maybe use to help yourself. There isn’t any point in you going through something if someone alread has. So take any insight you may find here and use that to help yourself avoid go around crud you don’t need to go through. I hope that you find bits that are funny or whatever. (I’ll settle for stupid if it makes you laugh.)

Here’s a handy-dandy key that you probably don’t need, but some people think lists are sexy (uh, not me):

BP – Bipolar Disorder

ADHD – Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder

GAD – Generalized Anxiety Disorder

OA – Osteo-Arthritis

RA – Rheumatoid Arthritis

EDE – extremely dry eyes (mouth as well)

Hold onto your hats. I promise this journey will bounce around and go where brain does.

Walk On. Head High. Face into the Wind. “Don’t Blink.”
(Doctor Who)

Robin