About Me

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Greetings and hello! Thanks for stopping in!

The first thing you should probably know is that I write primarily about Bipolar Disorder (BD), not because it is fascinating, but because I know from personal experience about what it is and how I live with it (and a few other tiny other things). I live with BD type 1, rapid cycling, mixed states, am primarily manic and have been so for a long time and am high functioning (* see below). That last one means I can act like there isn’t anything wrong with me. This can be a real problem when someone is trying to make a treatment plan for me and put me on the right medications. It can tell them that I’m doing better than I really am. It has taken me years to be able to let my guard down so Susan could see a little bit into my brain. Suddenly she understood and completely changed my medications. (Susan is my current med provider – the person in my mental health “team” who deals only with the medications I take.)

And now, on with the program!

I’m a single mom of three Millennials… yeah, I don’t know squat about what to do with them. No else I know has any suggestions on how to raise/teach/advise/etc. them either. It’s sort of like River Song in Doctor Who. When Rory and Amy were the Doctor’s companions they just happened to make a baby while on the Tardis. That baby, River Song, is born with the powers of a Time Lord. They have no idea how to handle her. In fact, when they first meet her she’s older than they are. Yep, Millennials are just like that. Definitely like that.

Millennials >>>> ?????>>>??? Parents??

I’ve been single longer than I was married, and I am jazzed about that.

I also have a 5-year-old Kelpie named Bailey. She’s a cattle dog. You know, one of those breeds that chases cows and horses and such. My eldest child (Jessica) currently lives with me. This house is now this is home to:

1 Dog
4 cats (my 1 – Maks, her 2 – Thea and Murdock), and a rescue kitten (Savvy/kitten/baby or little shit – making 4)
1 Bearded dragon we call Lizard (we can’t determine her sex. I say she’s a she and don’t care what she turns out to be because her name is still going to be Lizard and she’s still going to be a she.)
3 beta fish (Batman, Victor and Lost Boy)
2 tanks with an assortment of unnamed fish that the kitten watches like we watch TV

I love to read when I can slow my mind down enough to do so

I love books with short chapters… like a page or two, so I can focus on them. I can usually be found to be reading at least three fiction books, a biography, one on success (I figure one of them must surely have something I can use to help me navigate BD), and a couple books dealing specifically with BD. I’ve been watching HGTV for a while now. I enjoy being frustrated that their houses look awesome and mine does not (In my opinion.).

I enjoy taking my dog on walks and making one of the kids go with me. It turns out to be the best way to trap them into talking to me. I mean honestly, what are they going to do, leave me a mile from home? Well, actually, they might. I’d better not mention that to them.

This blog is about me and my stuff. My stuff includes: Bipolar Disorder, Mania, Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, General Anxiety Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Osteoarthritis Arthritis, and extremely dry eyes.  (BD, mania, ADHD, GAD, PTSD, RA, OA, & EDE. See? Alphabet soup). I’ve already had my right knee replaced twice, cataracts removed, etc. It’s a secret, but I’m actually 92 years old. Sshhh. No one can know!)

* This simply means that while I’m manic… I’m also depressed – At the SAME TIME! Now that’s freaking confusing. “How are you feeling?” Ummm… mashed potatoes? I also switch from one extreme end of what has been designated as human norms (manic – bouncing off walls, etc. and depressed – feeling crushed to death under the weight of the tectonic plates we live on) back and forth way, way faster than one of those persons who fall within the designated “normal humans.” Confusing? Yeah, I think so too. Imagine trying to live with me like my eldest does.

Okay, this is my honest to goodness life’s story. It’s how life and I interact, react and dance. Things are crazy ALL the TIME. I try not to write a whole book when I post… but I’m manically manic and I write what I write, and I write.

I hope you can find something here that you can identify with and maybe use to help yourself. There isn’t any point in you going through something if I’ve been through already and you can use that knowledge to help yourself avoid something. I hope that you may find bits that are funny or at least silly. (I’ll settle for stupid if it makes you laugh.)

Here’s a Handy Dandy Key That You Probably Don’t Need, But Lists Are Cool:
BP – Bipolar Disorder
ADHD – Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
GAD – Generalized Anxiety Disorder
PTSD – Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
RA – Rheumatoid Arthritis
OA – Osteoarthritis
EDE – extremely dry eyes

Hold onto your hats. I promise this journey will bounce around and go where brain does.

Walk On. Head High. Face into the Wind. “Don’t Blink.” (Doctor Who)

Robin

My Other Blog is:
The Etiquette of Madness (EoM)Where things begin to make sense.