I try not to try hard to sleep. However I want to sleep really, really badly. I’ve managed to stay awake all day today. Tonight I’ll take a sleeping pill and read for a bit. I hope it works. I’m definitely manic.
To someone who has never been manic, saying this probably means the totally wrong thing. Just trust me, it isn’t something taken lightly. Lack of sleep induced by mania can lead to psychosis and eventually to a psychotic break.
And again… psychosis and psychotic break are probably not what you expect either. Honestly, they are probably so much more horrific.
When I am more awake and my brain feels a bit less like a pot of sludge, I’ll try to explain. Wish me good night.