Bipolar – Scared


This might seem to some like a tivial concern, but I’m back in college again and tomorrow I have to recite a poem from memory. I’m so scared I’m having a really hard time. The unreasonable fear that I will mess up a poem I already have prepared. I get up there and can’t seem to remember how to start. Then I speed through making nervous mistakes. 

I need to have the strength and calmness to focus and relax… which with all the anxiety I’ve been having isn’t very easy.

Here’s a test run:

Lana Turner has collapsed 

I was trotting along and suddenly It started to rain and snow but you said it was hailing, but hailing hits you on the hard, so it was really snowing and raining and I was in such a hurry to meet you, but the traffic was acting exactly like the sky, and suddenly I see a headline

Lana Turner has collapsed!

There is no snow in Hollywood , there is no rain in California, I have been to lots of parties And acted perfectly disgraceful But I never actually collapsed 

Oh Lana Turner we love you, get up

We’ll I think I got it right. I think I did, I think I did.

After that I have a big test in biology. The teacher is so hard to follow. I hope I do at least okay. I’ll do my best, and if I’m not happy with it, I’ll just have to do better next time. 

I hope you have a good day. We can both try to remember to breathe. Breathe…

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