This is What No Sleep Looks Like

It is easy to say, “I haven’t been sleeping well for the last week.” It is less easy to give people, even medical people, a snapshot of exactly what the brain (my brain at least) is doing… while it isn’t sleeping.

I’ve not slept over two hours at a time for the last four nights. Sometimes I nod off durning the day for a little bit. While I was not sleeping last night, I thought I’d write a simple post. None of this has been edited or changed to make myself sound less… well less… you’ll see. (I’m pasting in the Word Doc I was writing in. I’ve had to adjust for line breaks because WordPress is printing the text without line breaks all the way across the screen and into the side bar drop down lists and such. I also had to adjust for tablet viewing.) This is how it went:

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That’s all of it. I went to bed and slept a while. I’m not sure for how long. I’m sure this must seem silly, and you might even be considering whether or not I made it up. I have a good imagination, but this is too boring. As is everyone’s right, you may interpret it as you will. As for me… I’m going to take a nap. I’m starting to nod off again. Lordy…

Can You Sleep?

I’m always putting together playlists to sleep to. I have a rough time getting to sleep, and, of course, staying that way.

My choice for tonight is smooth jazz.

I hope that you’ll check it out. If you like what I’ve selected, please LIKE it. If you enjoy selections like this I’ll be sure to find more for you.

Merry Christmas

Merry Merryday!!

Sleep well my friend.

And good night.

Respectfully,

Robin

SLEEP – My Secret to Regular Sleep

All kinds of people have difficult times falling asleep. We toss and turn and become agitated and completely frustrated. I even become angry. I just want to sleep. Just sleep! Is that really such a difficult thing? Okay, I have some mental health issues and maybe you do too, but that doesn’t mean that other people aren’t cursed with a lack of sleep too. It seems that everyone in the neighborhood sits against the headboard reading yet again another novel or writing down everything they think about because they’ve been told that this is an effective way to help yourself go to sleep. Sex? Have you tried having sex and then going to sleep? Yeah, no. Sex just makes me hungry. Oops. Did I just say that? Darn!

I’ve tried all the usual things such as herbal supplements, pharmaceutical (prescription) sleep aids, exercising and meditation…. Ah, and mindfulness. No luck. Really torques me off. One day it occurred to me that perhaps I could create a playlist on YouTube that might help me. There are videos of guided meditation, calming music and nature sounds. You may not believe this, but it works!

I’ve finally found something that’s been working for me very regularly! I’ve created a playlist that has a few detective stories (episodes) from Old Time Radio (OTR) shows and then transitions into a short guided meditation or two. Then I transition into music to relax my soul far into the morning. (Feel free to skip the guided meditation kinds of videos if you wish. You might try them for a while and just see if they help. It won’t hurt to mix things up.)

The first playlist I’ve provided here is one in which you can use some of the videos to build your own playlist. The name of this playlist is: NEED TO SLEEP OR CHILL?

This second playlist is my personal bedtime playlist. It is always changing according to how I’m feeling when I’m getting ready to sleep. I suspect that the routine of selecting the videos helps to calm me.

My personal playlist is: BEDTIME STORIES. () I use this playlist every night. If you check it several times you’ll notice several story episodes at the bottom of the playlist. I put them there as a sort of holding tank. I plan on using them in a night or two.

Give it a try and let me know what you think in the comment section. Can you come up with a playlist of your own that you’d like to share? Let me know and I’ll be happy to share it.

Best regards and I hope you get some sleep.

Robin

A Train Journey on YouTube

A Train Journey on YouTube

I haven’t tried posting from YouTube to here before. Tell me how it worked.

I’m listening to this right now. It will play on my phone all night. I got one of the charging pads so it would be easy to work with and hear.

Nite friends

Bipolar – Having Finally Slept

Last night I posted while I was wide awake and I wanted to be sleeping. Tonight I come to you having finally fallen asleep to my YouTube video sometime in the wee hours and woke by accident at 8:25 a.m., 5 minutes before two of my kids were due to arrive. We had plans to go to an early showing of Rogue One and we were meeting at my house at 8:30. I got out in the living room just in time to unlock the front door for them. I’m so happy I was wearing pajamas and not just a tee shirt. Apparently I forgot to even set my alarm. Surprise!

Today I’m trying to lay low and be chill. My daughter left after the movie for home while my son stayed to hang out with mom for a few hours. It was a very relaxing time. We lounged on the big sofa and watched TV while we ate cookies for lunch. Yesterday I had all the kids over and we made cookies for a better part of the day.

I find myself thinking about the coming night all day long. That’s just not healthy. I’m planning my strategy on how to get to sleep. How crazy is that? I’m going to listen to the YouTube videos again but hours earlier this time. I’m purposely not going to set my alarm.

Christmas day I have to get up and join my family for family brunch at my brother’s house. But tomorrow morning, I have no plans so yeah, I’m going to sleep in. Assuming I sleep. I usually fall asleep sometime after 3. I’m finding that I need a good long night’s sleep to get up and function in the morning. It’s especially important when I need to be someplace like school.

One thing I’m trying to do increasingly over time is to exercise more. This should help my moods and help me to sleep. At least, that’s the way my thinking goes.

And now, back to researching on Edgar Allan Poe, who may have been a fellow mood disorder sufferer. I’m trying to learn what I can about him. It’s good to focus on others who both do and do not have the illnesses I have. I may learn something helpful.