I’ve always believed that having a purpose driven life is much easier to live, and more fun, that one that just swirls around in circles about itself rather like having a Bipolar Swirly. I’d like to share with you a quote I just read written by George Bernard Shaw:
“This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself
as a mighty one … the being a force of Nature instead of a feverish selfish little
clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself
to making you happy.”
It made me pause and consider myself, my brain and my life. Despite what my brain might try to tell me at particular times, I’m still able to be a positive force in this world and to those around me. Maybe now always, but then we’re all human. And I know, I have challenges that “normals” don’t have. That’s okay and I accept that. However I’m not content with that. I will fight to the end of my days never to settle with being “mentally ill” and letting that define who I am.
Yes I’m doing better right now, at this moment. Yes, I’m probably mixing depression and hypomania. That’s ok. I’m a mixed state gal and I’m going to use that. I’m going to harness that energy and combination to finish my book: “Bipolar Parenting: How to Raise Outstanding Kids Without Killing them.” It is my field of specialization, is it not?
My purpose, now that my kids are mostly grown and my relationships with them are changing, must be found and chased after. If it is the same as I’ve always considered it to be it is to teach and entertain others so that they might live better. I might change it, but there it is for now.
Be well, Robin