I’m declaring myself to be in a manic state. What I mean by this is that I realize now that my being awake at night is now accompanied by extreme irritation and a very short fuse. I’m manic. I’m remembering the rush that comes with fury and it scares me.
Now that I realize what’s happening I can try to manage myself better. So far I’m a failure at that. It may be time to go back to the higher dosage of Latuda before this gets out of hand.
By the way, Carrie Fisher has had a heart attack. She suffers from several Bipolar type 1. I just finished reading her book Shockaholic. In it she’s candid about her illness and her treatment. I recommend it if only to give you another person’s story.