My way to mentally apologize before the fact for having so many eccentricities… is not to do or say anything at all.
This has to stop. Rather than stopping me, I need to stop doing it. Stop being afraid and freezing myself to complete inaction.
I panic and abort what I want to blog. . . because my attention span is – okay, I don’t actually have one. Even when I’m very manic regarding something my mind is ranging all over the landscape entertaining any little morsel it may find.
Seriously, I’m like my puppy. She stops to smell everything, is distracted while being distracted, puts everything in her mouth, stops in mid stride to grab a pinecone, rock or stick of ANY size. Okay, I don’t put everything in my mouth, thankfully. That would be so weird.
I watch Bailey (puppy – 4 month old Heeler) and how her attention is so excitable and well, iffy. Just like me really. She’s given me new insight into myself.
Here’s my problem. People don’t like it when I’m talking and I’m all over the place. When I’m blogging I think exactly the same way. I want to talk about whatever I’m talking to myself about. I don’t really want to focus on just being Bipolar or a Mom or… or… or… or… or anything single thing.
Because I’m not.
In the 2010 movie Alice in Wonderland Alice says, “I sometimes think about 6 impossible things before breakfast.”
This is totally me. Only expand it to include 24 hours and have no limit on how many things I’m allowed to think about. This is what and who I am.
“Sometimes I believe (or think) in as many as six impossible things before breakfast.
1. There’s a potion that can make you shrink.
2. And a cake that can make you grow.
3. Animals can talk.
4. Cats can disappear.
5. There is a place called ‘Wonderland‘.
6. I can slay the Jabberwocky.
I recommend you hold on loosely because it is going to be an interesting trip.