My Favorite Blog

/ Robin

I have a handful of blogs I read each day, blogs which I’m in intrigued or inspired by. My favorite blog at the moment is one by a person who has bipolar disorder, PTSD, and anxiety. I have the same with the added alphabet bits of ADHD. I enjoy the honesty the blog is written with and the story quality it is written with. I don’t necessarily feel inspired and like I’ve had a life changing experience after I’ve read it, but I do feel relaxed, knowing I have a kindred soul out there who is better at expressing herself than I am.

Go see musings of a mad woman to be entertained and perhaps like me, you will find a kindred soul. If you like what you find tell her so. If you don’t, well, click off to someplace else. She understands the etiquette of madness. Enjoy.

Musings of a mad woman

Petiete Confessions: A Humorour Memoirette

/ Robin

Review: Petiete Confessions:
A Humorour Memoirette with Sassy Drink Recipes

By Viki Lesage. (I read the Kindle version. The Kindle version is free right now.)

Amazon rates this #1 in humor and #1 in bartending. Is it funny enough to make me laugh out loud and to do so more than once? Was it able to make my manic brain slow down long enough to finish it? The answer is Yes! I finished the whole thing in two sittings.

I’ve been looking for something to make me smile or otherwise engage my emotions in a positive manner for some time now. Mostly I’ve been looking for some good poetry that stirs that something inside my super charged emotional center. I’m not into poetry per se, but as a result of the Creative Writing Class I just took I’m willing to look around and see what’s out there.

Now, as for funny, did Petiete make me laugh? Yes! Not hysterically from beginning to end, but I smiled and grinned and did indeed laugh. Was it humorous enough for me to invest in reading another book in the series? Sure. Are you curious how drink recipes are mixed with humor? Easy, she writes a chapter then ends it with a sassy drink recipe. Wanna know what a “sassy” drink recipe is? Get the book. I can’t give away everything. If I could drink (I don’t mix my meds with alcohol) I would look forward to trying them. If I found they were good I might even consider working my way through the whole book just for fun!

If you’re looking for something refreshing and a little different than you usually read give it a whirl. It doesn’t take too long to read. If you’re depressed and are looking for something to pull you up I’m not sure this would do it for you. You probably need to keep taking your meds or have them adjusted and talk to your counselor. If you’re looking for a book to pull you out of the funk of depression or mellow you down from a manic high this isn’t the book for you. But, if you are someplace in between the two extremes this might just be the tickle for your giggle. Check it out!

 

Books Etc.

/ Robin

I’ve added all the books I’m reading and have just read along with the audio books I’m listening to and have just finished on my new “Reading” page.

Manic Temper

/ Robin

Now I remember why I’m single. I’m angry. I’m pretty angry. I don’t like being angry.

I don’t want to be a clingy mother. I’d like to have a smooth transition to my son moving out. However, I expected my son to be here at 7 last night to finish filling up the dumpster before the neighbors did and he didn’t show and he didn’t call. He gave me his word he’d be home before 7, but and he got home around 9 I was pissed. By 9 it was dark and the neighbors had already filled the dumpster up the rest of the way. I really expected him to show up when he said he was going to be here. His excuse, which he gave me at 9:15, was that they were stuck in the fast food line. Freaking call me! His girlfriend would be upset with him if she knew he was breaking his word to me. It’s not okay with her for him to disrespect me.

Okay, he’s 21 and will be moving out in a few months. Does it matter? Not to me. He actually gave me his word that he’d be back before 7. It was important to me also because he’s had a habit lately of not showing up when he says he’s coming home. Like last weekend, he was supposed to be home early Saturday morning to help me clean out the garage and put it in the dumpster (getting ready to move) and then we were going to take his girlfriend and her dog Goofy and my dog Bailey and go to the park for a walk. By afternoon not only hadn’t we talked about when we were going to meet at the park, I hadn’t heard from him at all. He didn’t answer his phone, neither texts nor voice.

I’m feeling feelings I’ve not had in a while and I don’t like it. Last night I wanted to be destructive and explain loudly with slammed doors for punctuation why I was so angry. I didn’t ask for much. Be home when you say you will. Didn’t happen.

I’m happy single. Sure I miss the companionship sometimes. But I don’t miss the opportunities for anger.

Think I’m over reacting and having a bipolar moment? I’m human, just like you and I’m just having normal feelings of disappointment with someone I trust breaking their word to me, yet again. Last night we talked it over and he apologized. I think he understands. I think he does. He said he did. This morning I’m still having some residual feelings of irritation.

I find that even though my kids are all grown up now (ages 25, 21 and 18) I still expect them to behave the way I raised them. One of the things I taught them was to keep their word. I’d like to think that as their mom they’d treat me especially well.

Time will tell. I’m still feeling annoyed, but I forgive him.

The Word at My Fingertips

/ Robin

I’ve been despairing that not attending classes this quarter will drop me down the chute to the hell that is a bipolar episode. One day to the next I’ve been wavering this way and that trying to decide how I will handle this free time. We have some family issues going on that take time, but I still have all 24 hours of each day inside of my own head.

I love to read.

I love to write.

I have abundant time to do both right now so the logical thing would be for me to do them. Right? Maybe. It depends on the mood I woke up in and what I can do to improve it if it needs improving upon. Today, it doesn’t need improving. I’m in a good mood and even spent some time at my Mom’s house when my brother Tony took her lunch. He gets together with her once a week for lunch or something else. Kyle and I took Bailey over to play with Cricket, Mom’s Jack Russel Terrier. We had a nice time. I stayed calm the whole time. I even had some fun.

I’ve been surfing the web looking for news websites I could visit regularly to get ideas for stories for about a week now. So far I’m less than enthused. I don’t really want to buy a subscription to the New York Times for the web and tablet spring special price of $2.50 a week (going back to $5.00 a week when the promotion is over).

I clicked here and I clicked there and I finally ended up someplace interesting. I found an article “The Secret You Need to Know About Ebooks” on The Book Insider website. It had a link to one of those sites where you can find actual really good books for free or really cheap. A lot of books. I typically ignore sites like this but I surprised myself this time and signed up. Then I checked some boxes saying what I was interested in and Shaazzam! FREE BOOKS. Books I’ll actually read them. Maybe. It depends on how manic I become.

After spending about an hour carefully selecting books to “read” because we all know I’ll read them all, I experienced a feeling. I felt like I’d found something I was looking for.

Words. We all use them. Some of us use them for good and some for bad but we all use them. Now I have a wealth of books to read and learn from. Books to consider and be instructed in the fine art of writing by. And, probably some books I’ll just delete and not waste my time with. Nevertheless, I have books.

I’ve been reading a substantial amount over the last week or so and I was starting to tire of it, which is bad. Then I found all these free and low cost books and the manic bit of myself was awakened. I like it when it is awake. It feels good. I can do amazing things when I’m a bit manic. The trick is to not let it take me over.

The plan, if it can be said to be a plan, is to read and write and be as productive as I can for as long as I can. It will stop, this manic touch. The question is will I be in a good place when it does.

In the meantime let’s load these ponies up in the truck and see how far we can take them.

It’s exciting to be a bit manic! Let’s just hope I can keep it under control.

Now that’s a silly thing to say if I ever heard one.